Non-Duality leads to Duality?

[Frank Molignano]

Hello Everyone,

I thought I'd pose this question as a part of my own development and also to see how it reflects in your own experience.

As I become more aware of this infinite space present throughout all actions, reactions, and moments I find myself simultaneously aware of all the phenomenal play regardless if it is insight into the reason reactions are occurring, or how everyone responds and feels, or aware of everything surrounding. Logically this does seem like a natural response from resting because we have had such a tunneled vision approach to life and, in my case, unaware of the fear, anxiety, and reluctance to open up and see more than you had anticipated. Though I can see this as growth, surely all endless opportunities to rest, it does present its daily challenges to not be blinded by everything new and spontaneously appearing.

There isn't much more to share, just that I was wondering if you had similar experiences. That becoming more acquainted with your true self has revealed more of the duality like nature flowing from this non-dual space; in that becoming more aware of the phenomenal play. At moments I had thought it was becoming more dualistic to be more aware of thoughts, emotions, the outside world, because I sometimes find myself expecting things to quite down though either quieting or surging are infinitely equal.

Now I see the obsessive quality of the mind quite clearly which seems to jump at any opportunity yet I am committed to resting. This is the duality like surge I occasionally, and in the past have experienced. Maybe the minds last stand is to pull out all the stops and use this heightened awareness to obsess over more appearances.

Here is a question and video similar--that I've also been experiencing.