Ubique' s Journal

[ubique]

Although I'm starting late writing down this journal, i kept good company with the teaching provided here. Resting in awareness is common practice now a day, specially after the last lustful outburst,
i keep that in check hahaha! and feel grateful to be aware of what i feel( whatever that might be) but distance a bit more easily with all those transient recognition to settle and fall/ arise in awareness as it become more frequent.
A new perspective is in sight as the dark corner of my unconsciousness lighten up and the old pattern of the mind process
( thinking, seeing, remembering) comes to light and i recognize"my doing" in the uneasiness or misery that i experience.

This is a great journey and i took my time after the last post ( thank you for allowing space ) to really go to the core of my uneasiness.
Now what i like to continue with this journal is to specifically point at with everyday example the experience of free awarness.
A question come to mind :How this relate to Free From Appearances ATP? i guess i can see it as an analogie: The farmer/ gardener (The mind ) wants to dig the soil to plant a seed or a tree ( search for answers ), he unearths/ discover more seeds that was dormant deep under ( unconscious behavior, belief and thoughts ) these come to the surface ( the consciousness).
free of Appearances is the coming of the dormant seeds to consciousness.
I' m in to explore more of this free of appearances experience in a more life event experiences.
Thank you for reading

[Alan Kroeger]

Glad to see you got back

[Bentinho Massaro]

Glad to see you got back

Amen,

welcome back ubique!

[ubique]

Thank you A. and B. !!! for the succinct but felt warm welcome back note! it is a great chance to know you people!
I like to thanks Jynx as well for bringing Mooji to me! yes i wanted to recon that! go figure!

Appearances come and go and whatever come and go is. is for the simple recognition of being aware and present in it.

Love, Light and more time to share got to get some rest,

Ubique

[ubique]

Some times ago maybe three weeks back or more... i had a direct (on the spot) recognition of belief in appearance experience. it was at a meeting at school for parents and listening to the teacher speaking, i got my mind entertaining me with worlds of disapproval and irritation. the minute i realize the content of my mind i didn't want to see, i still believed in it ,cause such and such (and that's the small picture of my world map in my head). after a while in indulging in the burning fire (that what it comes to play with matches) it stopped. how?
the teacher was still talking and i realize that i was listening with my mind only and (my ears of course), possibly my bones too , well..but at that moment everything in the room changed! my looking (and listening) became effortless as i consciously sit there. so much so that i went to talk to the teacher after the meeting and engage in a short talk that i was very reluctant to engage before only to this particular one.(i feel uneasy with authority figure i guess, well no more believe in that, that's another appearance!:)
Bask in awareness as geckos in the fun sun

Ubique

[Bentinho Massaro]

Amazing story ubique, very good that you had this experience!

Peace & Love,
Bentinho.

[ubique]

"Free From Belief in Appearance" is powerful stuff! it is a way of remembering (to be present, aware)!

To recall on writing the events and reaction and the thought, or belief in appearance that lead to action(thinking, speaking and deed) is to me challenging , why is that so ? maybe cause i 'm just new to this recognition- i mean consciously and willingly into That, Now-

i know life is much easy so it seems -same thing as 3 month ago- but i feel i got back to myself, in some way i'm much more able to live Life, with the same buttons being push, but now less so... there is a progression in being , being naturally , inherently being, simply being.
i can see the progression around me too as the reactions of people around me shift swiftly into light... and there is immensity of acceptance-non resistance- to what present itself in the moment. it is subtle understanding, and we can recognize the jargon of it already. well till next time..

Life, Present, Bliss

[ubique]

Busy week end mostly cooking and making merry, i feel life is getting easier as less choice present itself means more peace of mind for me. and i can choose what i like to believe for how long and why i want to belief so, i feel like Bruce... Hahahaha....
i notice that being more conscious of my belief in appearance bring more contentment and less desires in my life. this was a positive week in the whole with only few episode and very brief in time of loosing it (hope, coolness, whatever i attached important with ) , still being in awareness more and more so that i feel now it reverse itself.
i appreciate enormously the words of B. simply reiterate over and over that I, you, we are all That and One. And most importantly for the personal grow is to just see that we are already perfect and complete as we are. i don't need to do or think in any particular way i 'm just letting awareness being aware of itself, and that is more that sufficient and to believe in that for a while ( but non attached to that ) helps me tremendously to be as i'm. what the point , hey? hahahaha

Love, Paradox and Openness

Ubique

[Bentinho Massaro]

And most importantly for the personal grow is to just see that we are already perfect and complete as we are. i don't need to do or think in any particular way i 'm just letting awareness being aware of itself, and that is more that sufficient and to believe in that for a while ( but non attached to that ) helps me tremendously to be as i'm. what the point , hey? hahahaha

Hey Ubique, may I compliment you on how quickly you pick things up. You know, the main reason for this is actually your maturity, the way I see it. You are willing, really ready also to not strive to become such and such. You do not hold the teenager kind of wish to be a super-aware-awesome-kick-ass being that's going to roam the world in exclusive freedom. You are mature in the sense that you don't need to seek complicated goals, you are willing to just be as you are and from that subtle peace that is there, let that grow into being completely free in mind and heart.

This is a blessing for you, the fact that you don't overlook the simplicity of awareness by looking to complicated or sophisticated things to achieve. Instead, you are ready to accept that in order to experience your freedom, you have to start with abiding as simplicity. Not looking for being something else, simply accepting that what you are already, however small or meaningless it may feel or seem at first, is somehow perfect, free and aware. And from that humility, the rest will follow. You are 'doing' great and from this point on ubique, there is no way back. The further you go down into the rabbit-hole, the more life starts to take over for you and being aware becomes naturally irreversible.

Love & Blessings,
Bentinho.

[ubique]

Hi B. you yourself are a poet as well, you know me and can see through me.
yes life is and I'm for eternity- period-
there is nothing new or old for that matter, just a tiny tilt to the left or to the right and voila.
for ever grateful to you and your words, dear Benhinto,

Love & Blessings
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